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Mon, Oct. 6th, 2008, 07:37 am
brandonboggs: Eh.

So I'm Brandon, and I'm fifteen.
I'm gay. I KNOW that. I don't want to hear how I can't know because of my age. I know, trust me.

In any case, I have ALWAYS been kind of scared of telling my parents about my sexual orientation. My father is a die-hard redneck idiot who is biased against anything different. My mother is a conservative christian who thinks that God hates homosexuals. But, in the end, I obviously was going to tell them. I just wanted to wait until I was perfectly comfortable. Until I was sure I had all my bases covered and I could sit down with them and tell them EXACTLY how I feel.

But, my mother intervened.

She started hacking my email account and reading everything. Apparently a Gay Straight Alliance thing was there. So, in the end, my mother cornered me one day and forced me to tell her I'm gay. She then easily said 'I don't think people are born like that. It's wrong, read the Bible'.

I was torn apart emotionally.

Shouldn't I choose the time and manner that I come out?!
Shouldn't I be the one who decides that?!

I will never forgive my mother for that; even if I love her unconditionally.


Are my feelings incorrect?

Wed, Oct. 8th, 2008 11:29 pm (UTC)
brandonboggs

Glassarchitect, I agree with you COMPLETELY. I mean, why couldn't she just sit me down to begin with and ask me if there was anything she wanted to know about me. No, she hacked my emails...

I don't really NEED my parents approval. It's just something I would like to have before I die. I mean, I love them! O:

I just can't wait to move out. Haha.

Thanks so much! :]

Thu, Oct. 9th, 2008 04:12 pm (UTC)
glassarchitect

That's a wonderful point of view. And it is at the core of coming out. People say it is a choice, but who would choose to be ostracized by their peers, to deal with the uncomfortable and awkward situations with friends and family?
As long as you're comfortable with who you are, that's all you need.
Although I do understand that desire for approval. My parents are similarly distant on the subject. If they don't talk about it, it doesn't exist. A sort of willing denial.
But still, she's your mother. She'll always love you; it just might take her a while to come to terms with this and completely accept you for who you are. But in time, she will.