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Mon, Oct. 6th, 2008, 07:37 am
brandonboggs: Eh.

So I'm Brandon, and I'm fifteen.
I'm gay. I KNOW that. I don't want to hear how I can't know because of my age. I know, trust me.

In any case, I have ALWAYS been kind of scared of telling my parents about my sexual orientation. My father is a die-hard redneck idiot who is biased against anything different. My mother is a conservative christian who thinks that God hates homosexuals. But, in the end, I obviously was going to tell them. I just wanted to wait until I was perfectly comfortable. Until I was sure I had all my bases covered and I could sit down with them and tell them EXACTLY how I feel.

But, my mother intervened.

She started hacking my email account and reading everything. Apparently a Gay Straight Alliance thing was there. So, in the end, my mother cornered me one day and forced me to tell her I'm gay. She then easily said 'I don't think people are born like that. It's wrong, read the Bible'.

I was torn apart emotionally.

Shouldn't I choose the time and manner that I come out?!
Shouldn't I be the one who decides that?!

I will never forgive my mother for that; even if I love her unconditionally.

Are my feelings incorrect?

Wed, Oct. 8th, 2008 11:27 pm (UTC)

This was right before school started this year. I'd say about two months.
I was... angry with her. I still am!

I'm so afraid to talk to her about it. D:
She hasn't brought it up since then, though.

Thanks so much for the support! <333